beauty in brokenness

new year’s can be a very triggering time for those who struggle with ocd. i know because this was me not too long ago. this year was surprisingly so much easier for me. now, don’t get me wrong, there were still some compulsions i did do, but they were not extreme.

i write this to encourage you that it does get better. i would not be at this point in my life if it wasn’t for two crucial things—therapy and Jesus. God orchestrated healing my heart and mind simultaneously this year.

every year i pick a word to focus on. a few years ago it was “healing”, not because it was a goal i could obtain, i didn’t think that was possible, but because it was the one thing my soul wished for. well, 2023 did not bring much of that, in fact it was one of the hardest years of my life. well, God brought me back to His heart by dec. so last year i chose the word “intimacy”. this is when tremendous healing started, when i truly encountered Christ. He gave me a new fight. a fight to break chains. a fight to do the work in and out of therapy. a fight to heal. 

last year did hold some darkness and heartbreak, but it held so much freedom!

this new year’s i decided on the word “worship.” i chose this because my faith was crushed to the floor and Jesus rebuilt it with me. now, i see Him. i have been hindered in my walk with Christ for so long and now can’t help, but praise Him. this is also a huge transition year for me as i graduate college and start my career. i know God is planning something big and worship will be the glue surrounding it.

don’t give up on God this year. trust me, He hasn’t given up on you.

receive that today,

love,

~ sara 🤍